Unfamiliar Surrealism

My parent have been strangly supportive this year. It somehow makes me doubt that they were ever harmful to my mentalhealth and confidence as a child. Though as my therapist told me, as much as we don't believe that our parent can change, they do can change, but it does not change what happend in the past.

And despite that, despite life seeing to go uphill, life still feels like dry ash in your mouth. It makes me realize how much of a burden depression is, this just makes me even more depressed.

I would've assumed that my parents would get mad or be dissapointed in me when I told them I'll pause my 3 years long studies, which they actually interpreted as me wanting to quit... Which would be the actuall truth. Perhaps my sister told them already and explained it in a form for them to digest till I was ready to tell them myself. I don't know. I'm still processing their supportivness about me giving up.

Maybe they misunderstood me? Maybe they will still get mad at me when they fully understand that I quit. Maybe they just pretent and are fuming and wailing in silent behind my back? Despairing about their retierment plan.

I learned in therapy, that in a moment like this, the best thing to do is just be happy that things went well, and that they decided to be good to me. I'll do that.