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These days I've been thinking alot about the unusual/unique euphoria I had when I was crossdressing for an graduation event.

Generally the feeling of gender envy I get more and more often, or perhaps pay more and more attention to. Especially when I see all those beautiful women on Tiktok, some of them being trans themselves, if I may say so without trying to be rude (afterall they're valid and still women).

I would like to be around more pretty woman these days, and do believe me, it has nothing to do with lust. I would like to be with them. Now what it's like to be a pretty women. What they think about, how they interact with the world and how the world interacts with them.

I don't think I had the time to explore that feeling of euphoria.

What it actually meant for me.

I think I'm more inclined to be gender fluid. Part of me wants to be more masculine as well. Though thinking more carfully now, do I want that or do I want to comfort to social standards and fear of verbal and physcial violance?

Such and such.

This and that.

I need more friends, that's the gist of it ig.